I feel nothing
Longing for something
Lie in bed to take your clothes off
Show me what you're made of
Drugs to soothe me
Chorus
(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kick me in my face
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate
I'm not gifted
Slightly twisted
Try hard try hard
To see if I can push you any further
Drugs to soothe me
Chorus
Please believe you'll save me, rearrange me
I can feel your feelings running through me
Take away my sorrow my tomorrow
Heal me
Chorus
I'm suffocating

I'm kinda numb
It's so distorted
You left me here with this damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
These fucked up places
In my memories none of them I've lost, but...
Chorus
I haven't been here long enough to know
Every time I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.
It's kinda sick
I feel so dirty
I'm kinda tragic kinda insecure
But I know that I'm the only
One that can fix whatever's wrong I'm sure, but...
Chorus
I feel so alone
From all I've become
I'll take you down
I'll feel so down
I'm water while you drown
You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb
I'm the needle in your spoon, but...
Chorus
Just go

I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means
I guess my mother never loved my dad
And now I wear it on my sleeve
My sister called me just the other day
It felt so good to hear her voice
My problem is I don't have much to say
I guess she doesn't have a choice, and I'm sorry
Chorus
Look at me I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself, save me from my...
My mothers always tried to change herself
She never learned to let things be
She doesn't know how bad she messed me up
'Cause now she seems so fake to me but I love her
Chorus
If you push me then I won't fall
I've been programmed to take it all
And shove it way down inside
Like my father
Chorus
I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means

Raw
The pictures left with me won't fade
These images affect me every day
Cause of you I feel I don't deserve
The life I see in her
Just don't leave me
Raw
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
Raw
I've never been someone who knows
My choices haunt me everywhere I go
Finally did something right for myself
My life to you no one else
Just don't leave me
Raw
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I'm so cold
I feel so cold
I can't take this
Raw
I feel so...
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
Raw
I feel so...
Raw

You take away
I feel the same
All the promises you made to me you made in vain
I lost myself inside your tainted smile again
Chorus
Cause you can't feel my anger
You can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again
I feel betrayed
Stuck in your ways
And you rip me apart
With the brutal things you say
I can't deal with shit anymore
I just look away
Chorus
Mudshovel
You take away
I feel the same
All these promises
You promised only pain
If you take away
And leave me with nothing again
Chorus
You will feel my anger
You will feel my pain
You will feel my torment
Driving you insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain
You won't take away
I'll be whole again
Mudshovel

I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything
Chorus
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be everything
That I should never take away from you again
Cause I heard ya say
Chorus
I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with...
I'll live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore
Chorus
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
Home

Trust In me can't trust I'm the whore I don't believe it
All my life so scarred what for who you can't conceive it
Everything you fear I'll be here you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear so loud, why can't you hear it
I'm OK
All my faith is gone you think I couldn't find it
Pieces falling down shattered now get behind it
In my mind alone, Lost in here I'm separated
Crawl deeper in my hole safe in here from what I hated
Chorus
All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don't show can't believe it
Want to show that I'm good for something
I can't you won't let me
Are you running cause your words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me
And I hate myself
And I hate my face
And I hate my world
And I hate my ways
And I
And I
And I
I'm not OK
I'm OK
Trust In me can't trust I'm the whore I don't believe in
All my life so scarred what for who you can't conceive it
Everything you fear I'll be here you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear why can't you feel it
Chorus
I don't believe it

I'm so lonely
You're so beautiful
Not the only
One that's pitiful
Scratched and torn I lay here in pieces
Craving all of your deadly vices
Like to think that I'm not addicted
But I guess I wear it well
Chorus
And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through you
Here I am now
Not a lot has changed
Nothing' better
Everything's the same
Late at night I can hear your voices
Talking shit about all my choices
You would think you've known me forever
Just because you know my name
Chorus
Everything falls apart
Everything...
Everything falls apart
Everything
Chorus

Can’t breathe!
Shut up
I feel I give everything to you
Can’t breathe!
Shut up
I think there’s nothing left to do
Can’t breathe!
Shut up
(2x) I don't like today, take it all away
Just like what you say - I don't want you
Kinda like the way, everything is gray
Just like what you say - I don't need you
I don't look like you, do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you
Can’t breathe!
Shut up
I feel you are what’s changed my soul
Can’t breathe!
Shut up
I think I'll never lose control
Can’t breathe!
Shut up
I don't like today, take it all away
Just like what you say - I don't want you
Kinda like the way, everything is gray
Just like what you say - I don't need you
I don't look like you, do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you
I don't understand it
You’re killing this planet
The scabs on your face
It’s a fucking disgrace
I blame you
I blame you
Can’t breathe!
Shut up

Well I know the words, but I can't really speak them
To you
And I hide all the pain that I've gained with my wisdom
From you
And I'm eaten alive, by what I hold inside
All the things that I live with I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It’s not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
Until I'm not alive
When you look at my face, does it seem just as ugly?
To you?
I can't seem to erase all the scars I have lived with
From you
I'm so sick of this place
This taste in my mouth
Cause of you I can't figure what I'm all about
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It’s not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
‘Til I'm not alive